PT school = gray hair

I have thoroughly been enjoying my time off before the start of my next clinical. My mom and I spent a day shopping in Ft. Wayne and it was very much needed. I sold my elliptical a week ago (I couldn't use it anymore because of my knees) so I had extra shopping money. It's always a good trip when you have to walk back to the car to unload your heavy bags halfway through. The only sad part of the day was getting into Indiana on the way there and seeing snow covering people's parked cars. Ugh. I'm really not ready for snow. I even had to buy a new winter coat, which was on sale from $210 to $130 :) so at least I saved money.

I found out last week that my next clinical did get moved to Perrysburg. I wasn't thrilled, because that's even farther away. But...it's just off of I75, so it might not be as bad of a drive since I can avoid all the city traffic. It is going to cost me $150 in turnpike tolls though, that is only if I get around to purchasing the sensor thing for the EasyPass so I save 50 cents each way. I also found out my hours. Mon/Wed/Fri I work 10-6:30 and Tues/Thurs I work 7-3:30. I'm not too sure how I feel about these hours yet. For example, Monday nights, I won't get home until after 8pm and then I'll have to get up by 5am to get back there on Tuesday. But, I will get to be home somewhat early on Tuesdays and Thursdays, so we'll see how it goes. The only thing I really am looking forward to is finally doing a clinical in an outpatient orthopedic setting. No more IVs and gaping hospital gowns. Plus, my CI seems pretty cool (at least from when he talked to our class), so it should be a good experience.

I'm planning to spend this upcoming week preparing for the clinical and studying up on a lot of my anatomy (since my CI said "know your anatomy" at least 20 times in the class lecture) and orthopedics. I'm also going to finish up my resume and get my cover letters ready. Even though it sounds like we won't officially be able to start working until June (if and when I pass my boards), I'm ready to get out there and find a job and I'm pretty sure I'm going to need an early start since our economy is so crappy. I also have a hair appointment on Monday to cover up all of the gray hairs that inevitably started coming in a couple of weeks ago :( I knew I'd probably start getting gray hairs soon, and probably all the stress from the last few weeks of class didn't help. I'm not sure what all I am going to do with my hair yet, but you can bet, I won't just sit back and let it all turn white and think that it's "pretty."

It's Official

I am now "officially" done with all of my coursework. Scholarly project presentations were last night. I gave a poster presentation, which means that I stood by a poster I made that displayed an overview of my entire project. Since my project was insanely complicated and ridiculous, most people just read the title and kept walking, which was fine by me! I think I was only asked about 5 questions total the entire night. I'm a little mad that I had to give my poster to the school to have it displayed at main campus. I really don't think that UT "owns" my poster, considering the fact that it's MY work, but whatever. I'm also annoyed because not all of my credentials are listed with my name on the poster (because my advisor wouldn't let me put them). That's kind of a slap in the face. You work so hard to get those credentials and then they're not even listed with your work. Oh well...it's over.

I'm a little nervous about my upcoming clinical. It starts in a couple weeks and I still have no idea what is going on. Last night at the presentations, one of the PT's who came as a guest speaker for class came up to me and told me that supposedly St. Luke's sent out an email asking someone to be my CI and no one responded so he said he'd do it. The problem is, he doesn't work in the Maumee office (I could be wrong, but I think he works in Perrysburg, which is even farther). So he told me he would email me and that I should call St. Luke's to get everything figured out. Well, I called this morning and they said they would call me back. Of course, no one has called me back, so I really have no idea what's going on or where my clinical is even going to be. This could have been solved very easily by putting me at the Swanton office like I requested, but oh no..everything's got to be as complicated as possible. Awesome.

So until then, I am just going to enjoy the next week and a half of days off by relaxing and trying not to stress out too much. I probably will do some orthopedics review since I feel pretty intimidated by it all. I might even watch the Gary Gray lumbar spine dvd today if I get really bored. Or I might just take a break from physical therapy for today and watch some mindless TV.

Lessons Learned the Hard Way

Tomorrow is scholarly project presentations. It's "officially" the end of classes, since our class will be leaving campus for good tomorrow night. I have a feeling it will be bittersweet. I'm sad that we won't be sitting in class together anymore. It made me feel like I was in high school again, having a small class and knowing everyone in it. Now, it's over. I'm relieved that the busy-work and paper writing is over. I'm also relieved that I will never have to deal with a certain instructor ever again. I'm nervous, yet excited, about the upcoming clinicals and finding a job.

We had a meeting today to discuss everything that we would need to know about registering to take the boards and laws exams. It was a little frustrating that our program director is going to be out of town on the day that they want us to come back and discuss any changes that we want made to the program (although she has a good excuse for being gone). It is frustrating to know that none of my suggestions will be given to the person that they actually should be given to. And it's a little ironic that they suddenly decided not to do formal exit interviews this year. Supposedly we are going to be given some forms to fill out that we can write suggestions on, but I'm not holding my breath.

I spent the afternoon today meeting with my SP advisor to finally get my poster finished for tomorrow. Of course then the printer ran out of ink before we could print it. More ink is supposed to come tomorrow and I'm supposed to be able to pick up my poster right before the actual presentations. There's nothing like leaving everything until the very last possible minute. I hate procrastinating and I have not enjoyed being advised by someone who does. But....tomorrow it's over.

Other than school (and the lessons I have learned in the past 2 weeks about dealing with difficult people), I just learned a very valuable lesson about living in a small town. I really wish that yesterday's sermon at church had come a couple of weeks earlier so that I could have learned the lesson of "not gossiping." Now I'm paying for it. Basically, I overheard someone bad-mouthing one of my friends on Saturday and it made me pretty mad. So I told someone about how mad I was about it and that person told my friend. Now my friend is making a HUGE deal about it and getting me involved. I'm pretty sure I'm going to be disliked by many people now for it. Just when I thought that everyone in this town had finally stopped bad-mouthing ME, they're going to start again...all because I got angry over someone's gossip and then gossiped myself about it. So...the lesson to be learned here is to NOT repeat things that other people tell you, even if they are not true and they make you angry. Just keep them to yourself. I'm pretty sure I'll be paying for this one for quite some time. And just when I thought that I was going to have a nice long relaxing vacation....ugh....

PT classes = done!

Goodbye forever PT school / grad school classes!!!! Goodbye exams! Goodbye lectures! I should probably not be so excited about this, considering the fact that I now have to put on my big girl panties and join the real world of working (and for 7 long months, paying to do so). But the past two weeks of terror that has been reigned down on my PT class by a certain instructor, I can't help but be elated about the fact that classes are officially over for good! After my meeting on Monday and presenting my scholarly project on Tuesday night, I can say officially say goodbye to the Scott Park Campus and my increased risk of being shot/stabbed by having classes there.

I am not even thinking about my scholarly project at the moment. Yes, I am frustrated about it, but it's basically done, so who cares? It's time for me to get out there and do what I was put on this earth to do - help other people. I can't wait! Of course, it's not going to be easy and I'll still have to do some studying, but I'm finally putting my skills to use in the setting that I really want to work in someday! Although my next clinical is a super long commute (it's at St. Luke's outpatient/ortho in Maumee), I've been told by so many people that it's a great setting, that I'll learn so much, and that the people are awesome to work with. We had a guest speaker in class this semester who works there and he told me that I will never get put on the spot by being asked random anatomy questions or anything to make me feel stupid - which is a huge plus! I have to say that I am so excited to finally be doing a clinical in orthopedics!

The phrase, "no more pencils, no more books, no more teacher's dirty looks" has never meant more to me than it does right now. I can't help but point out the fact we only had 2 instructors this semester. One of them took the time today to tell us how much he appreciated having us as a class and what a delight to teach us as a class. The other just handed out her test and glared at all of us. It's a little disheartening to have been treated so poorly for the past few weeks by this certain person and to leave on a bad note with her, but on the positive side, by the time anyone I know might be interested in applying to PT school at this program, she will for sure have retired they won't have to be subjected to the treatment I (an my classmates) was subjected to. That's pretty much all I have to say about it for good...because, other than the presentations on Tuesday and graduation in May, I will never see her again.

I still can't believe all the work of 3 long years is coming to a close! What a huge relief! NO MORE CLASSES!

Being busy might not bring out the best in me.

Well, as most already know, today is my birthday...I am officially going to be 27 years old in about an hour. I wish I could say that I did something fun and exciting, but this morning I worked on a project, then I went to class, now I am home and feeling like I should be working on more projects. I did order a medium pizza all to myself and stopped at Circle K for some celebratory beverages, unfortunately, I probably won't drink them because I decided to try "Bud Light Golden Wheat," which would taste better if it actually tasted like golden wheat...instead of oranges. I do plan on watching the Packers vs. Vikings game tonight, but I am pretty torn on who I want to win. I like Brett Favre, but I can't help but root for the Packers since my brother and his family live so close to their stadium. In the end, I'll probably root for the Packers, just because they're the underdog.

In other news, I'm trying to decide if I am a "mean" person or not. I don't think that I am. I think that I've gotten a lot better actually, but recent events have got me thinking - Have I really become a nicer person? or am I just pretending? I really don't know the answer....With all of the school stress that has gotten me so worked up lately, I've still made a conscious effort to be nice to the instructor in question. I don't know if it's getting me anywhere, but I feel like it couldn't hurt to just suck it up and get all the schoolwork over with.

But what I'm really talking about is the whole "dating situation" that I talked about a couple of weeks ago. I had gone out on a date with a guy from a nearby town and had been over to his house once afterward to watch a football game, but the whole time, I was sitting there thinking, "I'm really just not that into this." I felt that this guy deserved a chance, because there is really truly nothing wrong with him. I'm just not that into him. I thought maybe if I went out on a couple of dates with him, I could force myself into being more excited about it, but I couldn't do it. Then....I got bombarded with all the schoolwork. I explained to him that I wasn't going to be able to see him for a couple of weeks. He said he understood (which was nice), but then he just kept texting me and basically asking me if I was sure I was busy. Well, the really impatient part of me came out and I finally told him today that I'm just not ready for a relationship and that I think it would be best if we stayed friends. I'm hoping that isn't mean, because I did make an effort to be very nice about it. But in all honesty, I was very suffocated in my last relationship, and even though it was a year ago, I just can not handle being with someone who wants to take up all my free time. I suppose that is pretty selfish, but right now, I just need to concentrate on finishing school and finding a job. I'd like to find a job around here, but who knows if I really will be able to? And how unfair would it be for me to start a relationship with someone only to find out that I am taking a job 200 miles away? So...you can call me "mean," but I broke it off.

And just to point out how "sure" I am that I'm busy, here's the rest of this week's schedule:

Tuesday: finish the final draft of my business plan in the am, class till 6:30, then work on my final project

Wednesday: work on my final project and study for a final exam...and my scholarly project poster is due this day also (which I still need to format)

Thursday: final exam then home to work on my final project

Friday: final project due by 5pm

Saturday: work at the Habitat for Humanity house 8am to 4pm, my cousin's b-day party at 5, and then I got signed up for a "competition" at Buckboard at 11pm

Sunday: I just found out that my brother, his fiance, and my nephew are coming home this weekend, so I will be spending all day Sunday with them!

Monday: meetings all day with our program director and my scholarly project advisor

Tuesday: scholarly project presentations and finally DONE!!!

just breathe.

I've pretty much lost all the motivation I had to get things done, after working all day yesterday on papers and projects. I am finished with all of the papers, my scholarly project final draft is done (well, I think it is...I'll explain later), my scholarly project poster is formatted and almost complete, and I am almost finished with one of the remaining projects. That list below had dwindled down to this:

• finish the business/marketing plan
• write up the final project for Advanced eval/interventions
• study for a trauma rehab exam
• edit my scholarly project poster

That still sounds like a lot to me, but it's much better than it was before, especially after the week I just endured. I can't even elaborate on it without getting all worked up, so I'll just leave it at the fact that....it was a horrible week.

In addition to all of the stress, I feel like my scholarly project advisor never wants to make time to go over my manuscript. It's technically not due until October 16, but our last day to be on campus is October 13 (the day we present the posters and platform presentations). I told him that I want to have the manuscript completed by October 12, so that I can enjoy the remainder of the week, without having to worry about finishing it up. Well, he just went over my first draft last Wednesday and told me that I "don't need to be in a hurry to make the changes." Well, guess what? I really felt that I needed to hurry because I want the final draft complete by Monday, October 12. And I told him that. So yesterday, I worked all day last Wednesday and half the day yesterday to get all the changes and improvements made and send it back to him. He responded to my email with - "Thanks...we'll communicate later." If I don't hear anything back from him until Monday October 12 when we have our final meeting, you can bet that I will not be making any more changes to this manuscript. It is DONE at that point. And by the way, I did not cure diabetes with my research. The conclusion is: "more research is needed." ha...who's surprised?

I guess that's about all that's new with me. I have had absolutely no social life this past week and probably won't have one this coming week. I found it ironic that our clinical coordinator told us in our meeting on Thursday that we needed to always "take time for ourselves," no matter how busy we feel. I suppose she never had a week as bad as the one we all did, because last night was the first night in a long time that I just layed around and watched TV for a couple hours to get away from all of the projects for a while. I'm contemplating taking the day off today as well to just relax and watch football, but I really hate the feeling of not doing something that I know eventually needs to get done. I suppose I can use the fact that all of my emails to a certain instructor were ignored yesterday to justify the fact that I will ignore her work today. hmm....

Positive attitude? Please come back!

Horrible Week...

What an emotionally exhausting and draining week...After being given the guidelines for a majority of the assignments in the previous post just 5 days ago (and please note the due dates), those who acted on behalf of the class to propose suggestions to ease the stress of the papers and projects (that were given extremely late) were called names of profanity by the instructor who gave the assignments. Luckily, I wasn't one of those who tried to advocate for my classmates, because I think I would have really blown a gasket if I had been called the B-word by one of my instructors. All I can say at this point is: I'm going to sit here and crank out all of the papers and projects, get my scholarly project done, and keep very specific documentation of everything that has happened with the instructor in question over the past week. When exit interviews are conducted in May, you can bet that I will be presenting all of the documentation to our program director and explaining to her that this past week alone was enough for me to tell anyone who is considering coming to our program for PT school to go somewhere else until this particular instructor retires. I feel that the entire UT DPT class of 2010 is owed an apology for what we endured this week (which includes a multitude of comments that I will not take the time to post) and I can only hope that no further classes that go through this program ever have to feel the same way as I feel at this very moment.