Snow Days

So after going to school for 7+ years, I work at a job that requires me to come to work when it is not safe to be on the roads due to bad weather. I am less than thrilled about this. Apparently Physical Therapists are considered "emergency personnel" and can drive to work during a Level 3 snow emergency. We're just supposed to show our name badge and we won't get arrested. HA! I don't think so.... Guess who is absolutely NOT driving in to work if there is a level 3 emergency. I did overhear my boss telling 2 of my coworkers today that they would "make do" if some of the therapists had to call off. Well guess what, they're just going to have to "make do" without me if it's that bad, because I refuse. I'm not risking my life. And I'm not staying the night there just because I am single and don't have any kids. There are only 2 conditions in which I am willing to spend the night in Montpelier tomorrow night, either:

a) I get to take Friday off work without having to use any benefit time and receive full pay for it

or

b) The hospital pays for my accomodations at the Ramada Inn

Otherwise, I am coming home... and on Wednesday morning, if it's bad, I might just back out my driveway directly into the pile of snow that the snow plow piles up and get "stuck" and have to call in. I'm sorry, but therapy is not life or death. Nursing staff is necessary at the hospital and so is a doctor for the ER. But therapy is not. I will stay home and snuggle with my cat...who I love just as much as a child.

It will definitely be interesting to see how this week pans out. I wonder if I'll get fired for not going in or staying the night there? At this point, I don't even care. I kind of enjoy the activity of living and I think I will keep on doing it.

The effects of aging

I am getting so old :( My back is killing me. I am living on Bayer back and body pills like there is no tomorrow. I don't even know what I did at my exercise class tonight, but it's really aching now.. ugh. I feel like all my vertebrae have arthritis. Plus, I'm pretty sure I just created a self-tanning disaster of myself with tan towels. I should be nice and orangey looking by the weekend. Nothing says "attractive" like a self-tanning nightmare who can't even stand up straight from an aching back.

This has been a pretty stressful week to say the least. Work has been crazy. We aren't even that busy, but it's been hectic. A lot of things are going on. I'm having a hard time keeping my head on straight most of the time. And lucky me, I get to work this Saturday. Oh well. I need the paycheck. No job is perfect and I'm still pretty blessed to have the one I have.

As for other issues/happenings in my life. Well, I guess I will just be patient and see what happens. If anything is meant to happen, it will. If it wasn't meant to be, then I'll just accept that and move on. But let's all say a little prayer that it does :)

Pity for pity's sake..

I am totally out of my element. And completely not used to feeling this way. I just want to know if I stand a chance. I hate this not knowing. I used to be so confident. Now I am so unsure.

Apparently when I fall, I fall hard.. I just don't want it to hurt too bad if I hit the ground.....

Paramore: The Only Exception [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

:) :)

Well, here's to another weekend of me hanging out in the background being too scared to say or do anything. Oh I'm smiling, but I'm getting too impatient for this. I want to know the answer NOW. All this not knowing is making me feel too insecure.. I wish life had an "easy manual" that just gave me all the answers so I could know if I'm doing the right thing or just making an idiot of myself.

On one hand, I hate this feeling, because I am not an insecure person... On the other hand, I haven't felt this way in so long, and to feel it again is to feel alive. It sounds so cliche, but it's rare to find someone you're willing to risk your pride for...

No fear, No doubt

I don't even know if I have a reason to smile, but I'm gonna do it anyway. It was a good weekend :) I still don't know exactly what to think, but I said it before and I'll say it again - I don't feel this way too often, and even if there's no chance for anything to ever come of it, I will still be happy here behind the scenes :)

"We should all start to live before we get too old. Fear is stupid. So are regrets."

Wonderwall