Monday, January 31, 2011

Snow Days

So after going to school for 7+ years, I work at a job that requires me to come to work when it is not safe to be on the roads due to bad weather. I am less than thrilled about this. Apparently Physical Therapists are considered "emergency personnel" and can drive to work during a Level 3 snow emergency. We're just supposed to show our name badge and we won't get arrested. HA! I don't think so.... Guess who is absolutely NOT driving in to work if there is a level 3 emergency. I did overhear my boss telling 2 of my coworkers today that they would "make do" if some of the therapists had to call off. Well guess what, they're just going to have to "make do" without me if it's that bad, because I refuse. I'm not risking my life. And I'm not staying the night there just because I am single and don't have any kids. There are only 2 conditions in which I am willing to spend the night in Montpelier tomorrow night, either:

a) I get to take Friday off work without having to use any benefit time and receive full pay for it

or

b) The hospital pays for my accomodations at the Ramada Inn

Otherwise, I am coming home... and on Wednesday morning, if it's bad, I might just back out my driveway directly into the pile of snow that the snow plow piles up and get "stuck" and have to call in. I'm sorry, but therapy is not life or death. Nursing staff is necessary at the hospital and so is a doctor for the ER. But therapy is not. I will stay home and snuggle with my cat...who I love just as much as a child.

It will definitely be interesting to see how this week pans out. I wonder if I'll get fired for not going in or staying the night there? At this point, I don't even care. I kind of enjoy the activity of living and I think I will keep on doing it.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

The effects of aging

I am getting so old :( My back is killing me. I am living on Bayer back and body pills like there is no tomorrow. I don't even know what I did at my exercise class tonight, but it's really aching now.. ugh. I feel like all my vertebrae have arthritis. Plus, I'm pretty sure I just created a self-tanning disaster of myself with tan towels. I should be nice and orangey looking by the weekend. Nothing says "attractive" like a self-tanning nightmare who can't even stand up straight from an aching back.

This has been a pretty stressful week to say the least. Work has been crazy. We aren't even that busy, but it's been hectic. A lot of things are going on. I'm having a hard time keeping my head on straight most of the time. And lucky me, I get to work this Saturday. Oh well. I need the paycheck. No job is perfect and I'm still pretty blessed to have the one I have.

As for other issues/happenings in my life. Well, I guess I will just be patient and see what happens. If anything is meant to happen, it will. If it wasn't meant to be, then I'll just accept that and move on. But let's all say a little prayer that it does :)

Monday, January 24, 2011

Pity for pity's sake..

I am totally out of my element. And completely not used to feeling this way. I just want to know if I stand a chance. I hate this not knowing. I used to be so confident. Now I am so unsure.

Apparently when I fall, I fall hard.. I just don't want it to hurt too bad if I hit the ground.....

Friday, January 21, 2011

:) :)

Well, here's to another weekend of me hanging out in the background being too scared to say or do anything. Oh I'm smiling, but I'm getting too impatient for this. I want to know the answer NOW. All this not knowing is making me feel too insecure.. I wish life had an "easy manual" that just gave me all the answers so I could know if I'm doing the right thing or just making an idiot of myself.

On one hand, I hate this feeling, because I am not an insecure person... On the other hand, I haven't felt this way in so long, and to feel it again is to feel alive. It sounds so cliche, but it's rare to find someone you're willing to risk your pride for...

Sunday, January 16, 2011

No fear, No doubt

I don't even know if I have a reason to smile, but I'm gonna do it anyway. It was a good weekend :) I still don't know exactly what to think, but I said it before and I'll say it again - I don't feel this way too often, and even if there's no chance for anything to ever come of it, I will still be happy here behind the scenes :)

"We should all start to live before we get too old. Fear is stupid. So are regrets."

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Friday, January 14, 2011

:)

I, for one, and so glad it's finally the weekend! This week at work has been so hectic and busy. On the plus side, it went by very fast, but I am more than ready for a couple of days off to recover! This weekend should be good. Tonight I'm just relaxing at home (very much needed) and tomorrow I'm going to the boys' basketball game. One of my friend's from work has a son that plays for Edgerton, so they're coming here for the game tomorrow. It should be a good time. I'm excited :) Well... for more reasons than one. I don't want to sound like a horrible person, but there is someone that I've been thinking about a lot lately that will be there also. I'm not saying that anything will ever come of it, but just the thought makes me smile. This is rare for me to feel this way, so I'm not really sure what to make of it. Just going to enjoy the little fleeting moments of happiness for now and not worry about anything else.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

What a day

Well, wouldn't you know it? I'm already single again. I suppose this means that New Years day isn't that lucky of a day. But in all seriousness, it was a mutual decision. We just decided that we were better off as friends. You can't force yourself to fall in love with someone or even have feelings for them just because that's what so many other people want. So we are no longer a couple, but still friends with no hard feelings. It probably sounds harsh, but I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. That is, until 100 people come up to me at church this Sunday and ask me what happened ... *sigh*

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Life is good. Peyton Manning is good too.

So far, so good in this boring little life of mine. I haven't had a whole lot to say in the past week or so, because I feel like I have nothing exciting to post. Work is still the same, although I have moved on up to take on a few more responsibilities...with no pay raise of course, but maybe taking on more will eventually lead to a pay raise. I evaluated and starting seeing my first outpatient yesterday. After working so long seeing rehab inpatients, I've about forgotten how to eval and treat outpatients. It was a bit of a transition, but I think it went ok. One of our outpatient therapists is on a 3 week vacation, so the rest of us are trying to fill in and I finally got my opportunity to show that I can take on some extra work. It was a little nerve-racking, but worth it. I'm going to continue to see this patient and one other outpatient next week :) But...don't get me wrong, I still love my rehab inpatients and have no aspirations to ever leave for an outpatient job.

For all of those who say they "need details" on my relationship with Dusty, well I don't have a whole lot to say, other than I am very happy with him. He is from Morenci, but his parents live in Fayette now. He goes to my church and is the youth group leader there. He is 34 and has 2 kids from a prior marriage. He is a concrete foreman. He is working and going to school to become a youth pastor. I guess that's about it :)

Well, I am going to enjoy every last second of this weekend and my time off. I have already run all the errands that I need to take care of, so it's lazy on the couch from here on out for me. The Colts play their first playoff game at 8pm tonight :) I can not stress enough how blessed I feel to have all of the things that God has put into my life at this point in time. Life is good!

Saturday, January 1, 2011

1-1-11

Is it good luck to start a new relationship on New Years Day? I don't know, but we're about to find out :)